"Be courteous to all, but intimate with few, and let those few be well tried before you give them your confidence. True friendship is a plant of slow growth, and must undergo and withstand the shocks of adversity before it is entitled to the appellation."
Let’s face it, I’m sort of retarded when it comes to this principle. But I’m learning slowly...
So, there’s this idea that’s been tickling my fancy lately.
As soon as I get enough money, I could move, transfer universities or something...
I could get in little bit more education, get a job, make only casual acquaintances. Then before anyone gets too close...before I become vulnerable, before I fall in love, before anyone can make me feel stupid or ugly or dull, I will pack my bags in an instant and RUN.
Perhaps to another country? A language barrier might be just what I need.
I could go around doing good things unnoticed. Being kind to people in ways that would never call for attachment or recognition. That’s the best sort of kindness anyways. It lets people believe in angels and miracles. I imagine this is something like what the three Nephites must do... Perhaps they were gay too hmm?
Other than flying back to my family for Christmas and a few special occasions, I think that no one would ever know where I was.
If I can’t be in a relationship and have children, this seems like the next best thing.